A Great Day.

Today was great, if I didn't know better I would have thought that I wasn't even going through chemo and cancer.  I felt as if I could take on the world.  What a great day!!!

Chemo Sunrise.

The joys of chemo are starting to wear thin.  One of the effects that chemo has is that when I awaken in the morning I feel as if I have not slept at all.  It is on mornings like these that I have to get up for more than just the feeling of having rested, I must get up to live.  I know that people tend to stay in bed when they don't feel like getting up, for me that is how I used to be, but chemo makes all things different.  I know that if I were to stay in bed the feeling of defeat could easily take over and this fight would be lost.  I push through not because I want to, but because my very life depends on it.  The same holds true with our spiritual lives, if we give in to what our mind says we should do, then our spirit will die.  Just as in life we must gather the courage to get up so that we can live victoriously over the evil that so wants to destroy us.  If we stay in bed then we lose the fight.  I encourage you to get up because your spiritual life depends on it.

Feeling Better Today

Today I began to feel a bit better than I have in the past few days.  I was able to do my usual 4 mile walk this evening, something that I had not done since Thursday.  After the walk I was pretty zonked and my muscles felt like jello.  I still felt very fatigued throughout the day, but managed to make it through.  One cool thing that I have noticed is that I can already tell that my lymph-nodes are decreasing in size, so I guess that the poison is working.

Normal?

As I enter into this long process I wonder if my life will ever be back to normal, or will there be a new normal afterwards.  I hope that after this ordeal that there is a new normal, a normal that is more enjoyable.  I enjoy life now, but I hope to enjoy it to the fullest when this is finished.  To say that I want to grab life by the horns would be an understatement.  Instead I want to grab life and suck every amount out of it as possible, to do everything that I have ever dreamed of doing and to do it well.  That is the new normal that I want in my life.

Better!

Today started out a little rocky but as the day progressed things started going better.  I think for this round things are probably going to get better.  I can't imagine that I would experience any weird stuff before my next treatment.  I keep my faith in God to bring me through this time of trial, and that allows for me to know that this is only temporary and not permanent.  I cannot imagine going through this and knowing that death was to be the end result.  The people that do that really have courage that I can't even begin to imagine.

A Long Day.

Today was one of the worse that I have had during this whole ordeal.  One of the main side effects of the chemo that I am on is that things don't pass as easily as they normally do, making life not so pleasant.  I did feel a bit of nausea today, but I think that it was do to the fact that stuff isn't flowing properly.  I was up early with the Jam sale and noticed that the cold air was pretty rough on my bones, I felt like a wimp in the cold.  After the sale I spent most of the day relaxing and being around the family.

First Chemo

My introduction to chemo was yesterday.  So far the only side effect that I  have suffered is a bland taste to food that I am eating.  Not bad for a guy with an addiction to taste who is looking to lose weight.  I only experienced a small amount of nausea last night, but that subsided.  So far so good.